being really confused

what iam doin rite now???

im friends with my wx GIRFIE!!!!

OHMYOHM
Y!!!!!!!

BIe what happen too
u???

GOSH!!!!!!!

bna nya mok kwn ngan ku??
or just bcause she friend with me sbb afraid clevel ar with me??
gosh
......
biggest problems!!!
GAL IS LESBO...


what happen n what wrong with dis family???

OHMY!!!!!

BAMF! whatever you like

she go for FOREVER

she beatiful
she good
she such a prefect women i have seen bfor...

Aunty Josephine..
May your SOUL REST IN PEACE...

i promise i will be good as u wish aunty...

alot u noe bout me...
u help me alot
with my life

it HAPPen

TODAY was HARD FOR me...
i was blam by CLEVEL frinds about my ATTIDUDE
that i was to BAD???

FUCK OF LA...
WHY U MIND MY OWN BUSINESS
CHALIE...

WATCH OUT PEOPLE NOK SANGKUT PAUT NGAN CLEVEL..
EITHR
GF..POHLYN A.K.A PUKIMAK....
UR FRENZZZZ....
OK..
I WARN U!!!!!
MORON

GOSH

parai ku....
2nd last sem...
repeat gik haiyo....
xterkata2 me ody...
WLPN last nite was awsome....
thankx LUKE.....

mata ngantok...

"Yeah. I KNOW. I SUCK. BUT SOMETIMES I SUCK, I MAKE MYSELF LAUGH. YEAH, STUPID JOKES. THAT WAS SHIT. HELL. THIS IS SHITT."

Shiiieet

Life moves pretty fast. If you don't stop and look around once in a while, you could miss it.

time to live a little bit , you mother fuckers .
after you read this , i dare you .
AHAHHAHAHHA . no i command you to do somethingyou've always wanted to do .
want to hit that bitch whos backstabbing you ?
want to ask that fucken dickhead out ?
want to try something you would never tried cause your little stereotyped friends arentdoing ?want to eat something you've never tried ?
want to cut your hair in a different way ?

stop fucken waiting .
go ahead .
just do it .
i dare you .


apa d repek ku aWl pg....

@12.35 am

It hurts to love someone and be loved in return. But what is more painful is to love someone and never find the courage to let that person know how you feel.

A sad thing is life is when you meet someone who means a lot to you, only to find out in the end that it was never meant to be and you just have to let go.

The best kind of friend is the kind you can sit on a porch and swing with, never say a word, and then walk away feeling like it was the best conversation you ever had.

It’s true that we don’t know what we’ve got until we lose it, but it’s also true that we don’t know what we’ve been missing until it arrives.

Giving someone all your love is never an assurance that they’ll love you back. Don’t expect love in return, just wait for it to grow in their heart, but if doesn’t, be content that it grew in yours.

Never say goodbye if you still want to try. Never give up if you still feel that you can go on. Never say you don’t love a person any more if you can’t let go

It takes only a minute to have a crush on someone, an hour to like someone, a day to love someone, but it takes a life time to forget someone.

Don’t go for looks, as they can deceive. Don’t go for wealth, as it can fade away. Go for someone who makes you smile because it takes a smile to make a dark day bright.

Dream what you want to dream, go where you want to go, be what you want to be, because you have only one life and one chance to do all the things your heart desires.

May you have enough happiness to make you sweet, enough trials to make you strong, enough sorrow to keep you humane and enough hope to have faith in a dream.

A careless word may kindle strive, a cruel word may wreck a life, a timely word may level stress, a loving word may heal and bless.

The beginning of love is to let those we love be just by themselves, and not twist them with your own image.
Otherwise we only love the reflection of ourselves we find in them.

The happiest of people don’t necessarily have the best of everything. They just make the most of everything that comes their way.

Happiness awaits those who cry, those who hurt, those who have searched, and those who have tried, for only they can appreciate the importance of people who have touched their lives.

Love begins with a smile, grows with a kiss, and ends with a tear

The brightest future will always be based on the darkest past

When you were born crying, everyone around you was smiling. Live your life so that when you die, you will be the one smiling while everyone is crying.

To me life is just another reality show and the only person watching is god. sometimes he laughs, he cry's, gets angry or dissapointed . then again i feel his pain and sometimes i hate that pain and i just want to end this so called reality show of mine but CLEVEL make it feel like life is worth living no matter what drama comes my way .

@2.13am

i'd hate to say it but im happy the way i am.
No strings attached, wholeheartedly,
im coping fine with the daily struggles, without the therapy, and without the drugs.
im happy.

move on

i need a sign, i need something that will explain everything that is happening in my life, i need someone to tell me the truth, i need you to tell me

why can’t you just tell me >:( ?

ive moved on. so have you, then why do you still miss me, still focus on my life. focus on your own. why am i so important to you. you broke my heart and you still think about me? fuck you. fk you for all the times ive cried so much to the point where my eyes would get swollen the next day. my friends were right, your not worth it, all my time, all my love, i tried to make it work but you made it so complicated. now ive met someone new who does deserve everything from me. you lost me, its your fault not mine. stop blaming me for your stupid choices .

i hope you do find someone new, someone who loves you like i did. but i hope she just fucks you over in the end. i hope she ends it over msn and never calls you back, because you deserve to feel what ive felt .

The truth about girls:

We act like we’re cold so you’ll hold us.
Gossip isn’t a sin, it’s an art.
The word “bitch” doesn’t mean much to us.
When we say we’re fine, we’re usually not.
Most of us fall in love way too easily.
We’re never too old for sleepovers.
All of us have a mean side, some of us just don’t show it.
We’re confusing, and you’ll never have us completely figured out.
Most of us like attention.All of us like to hear that we’re beautiful.
Most of us love cuddling.No matter how many times we say we don’t care, we usually do.
We’ll mess with your head.
If we say that nothing’s wrong, something usually is.
And just when you think you have us figured out,
something will change and you’ll be all wrong.

I was perfectly happy killing myself but then you asked me to try, and for the first time in my life it felt like someone actually gave a shit, and that person was worth trying for

I'm speaking my mind!

i hate myself for just letting time slip away before my eyes. Time has been flying and I've been letting it past me right by. Everything's been happening too fast this year, it only feels like yesterday taking me back to those good old days. Nostalgia. I should really forget it all and move the fuck on. Everything! It's not worth holding onto anymore, I won't let it get in my way. But the problem is I feel that I'm stuck with the past, even the little events build up. They just all return all at once and nothing new has entered my life ever since. I'm still living in the past, I missing something so fucking important right now. I really need it but is it possible to reach? From the point where I'm standing now? I've been struggling to survive each new day as it comes and I believe my days only grow longer and harder. I don't know what has happened to me, I guess I had my limits and some things were just overboard. It killed me. I haven't been able to pick myself back up and get back on track y'know? Just as I thought everything falls back in place again, I realise something else is up. Nothing is ever perfect for me, why? Life used to be great, my smiles were true, laughter filled the air, I was delighted at the end of the day, always. And these days? Barely, hardly, never! They say they understand me trying to tell me what I freaking need, I think I know and no one will understand me. They're only there to listen and comfort me at times when I need them and that's more than enough. I'm grateful to have met a few but I can say I'm glad to have met all those. Those who I was never meant to meet, thanks for making me who I am today.. a fucking god damn bitch! I never used to be a bitch but these days, it's just me and others have grown used to it. I can't be bothered putting effort into anything especially school studies. I'm seriously failing, not motivated at all and yet I don't seem to care less. I've become a queen of procrastionation and more lazy than anyone! I don't even remember the last time I aced an exam. My results and grades are going downhill, I'm going downhill with everything. Nothing is working out and I need a break from all this shit. I need more time but time is running out. It's been half a year already and I fucking need to put myself together. Mend all those broken pieces of me together again ain't easy. Some missing parts can never be mended or can they? Time heals all and I hope it does, even if it takes years, it will. Year 10 is the worst year of school for everyone. A different side I've never seen of people are finally being revealed and I haven't stopped being a bitch at all. It just doesn't work, sometimes in life you gotta be a bitch to survive out there. Hypocrites, dickheads, bitches, sluts and the amount of bitching that's been going on lately is pathetic. Everyone is such a hypocrite it's not funny and it's okay to girls who bitch about me cause I'm sure I talk shit about ya anyway. It's fucking quarter past 1 in the morning and I don't wanna sleep yet. Don't want to wake up to late. I am absolutely sick of it! This blog's a mess and everything is just all out of place at the moment. I just pray that things fall into place for me and holidays put me back together again and fuck, replace that part of me I'm misssing. I need it badly. I'm hating on myself right now, just FML. Yeah, fuck my life! It ain't worth living sometimes.

Rawr :)

Right Now

At this very exact moment, i feel completely, absolutely and entirely crap. Im in one of those moments where you feel like, you'll never at all get over. Those moments where you really cant understand why you're sad, those moments where you don't think you'll ever accept what you did, and simply one of those moment where you won't ever realize, and understand your true intentions, or even understand, yourself. Yourself; The one person you are supposed to know, because who else is controlling your every single move, feeling and thought but you.

I know, i should just be getting over whatever im fussing over, but right now at this instant, i think i've forgotten how to get over things, let alone forgive myself. This is one of those moments where you tell everyone you're ok, but inside, you are wholeheartedly, entirely NOT ok.

Feelings right now; useless, stupid, cheerless, heavy-hearted, pessimistic, annoyed, resentful, abandoned, isolated, empty

In the back of my mind, i know im going to be my usual smiling, happy self by tomorrow, but until then, i think im going to be some grouchy, grumbling, ill-tempered monster.

ciao from the sulky biatch.

Because i'm .Strong D:

Ever feel like you have this one person, that you could seriously never, not even when your trying your best; - to get rid of? That one person who'll really never stop bugging, irritating, and simply annoying you to the end of your limits.

Well yeah right now i think theres this person who really has nothing else to do but b*tch, annoy, and seriously just hold a grudge against someone and just agitate someone. I would seriously, all joking aside, want and need this person out of my life. Im close to my limits, all the backstabbing, all the accusing, all the stupid talkings of "betrayal", really need to stop. Whats the point of fighting if both of us are losing anyway?

Well this person thinks they can do whatever they want, loudly, and proudly. I used to think this person could control, anyone and do this to everyone, but now i've found out t hat no-one really likes a gasbag. This really gave me a bit of confidence to handle this stupid little situation.

Anyway, i just wrote this to say to myself that i can handle people who make me feel small, because i know that just because people make me feel small and defensless, doesnt mean i am, i can stand up for myself, and really, if i do it well, maybe this person will stop bugging me.